We are obsessed with knowing how the couples we see knew they had found their person. We ask newlyweds, grandparents with 50 years under their belts, friends, strangers, newly engaged acquaintances, and fictional characters on TV.
I think the answer will always be different. The tipping point where you go from thinking "I love you now" to deciding "I'll love you forever". For me, I knew around Thanksgiving the year we met. We couldn't spend the holidays together. We spent time right before though. I remember this Thanksgiving was like every other. It was a formality. A way to show our family could still get under one roof. A time to pretend we were closer with our cousins than we really were. We had good food and I guess that's why people would still come despite knowing some sort of fight was bound to break out. It always did. I remember thinking, "I can't stand doing this another year". I wanted you. I wanted to cuddle up on the couch with you. I wanted all the people around me to welcome you in like I saw them do for all the boyfriends and girlfriends of others. But I knew that would never happen. I knew. I hated that I knew, but it was without a doubt that I knew. And in that moment I chose. I chose that next year on the holidays I would spend them with you. I'd lose them all in exchange for you. And I'm so glad I did because now everyday is like a holiday. We spend time together just appreciating one another. I'm slowly learning to look forward to the holidays and new traditions to come. I love you and I choose you forever and always.
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